Monday, September 17, 2012

It's just so damn hard

I know that's harsh, but...well... I hate to write this kind of blog post, but I just can't write platitudes today, and I need to get it off my shoulders! I haven't written in a long time because this(homemaking/mothering/wifeing)is hard work. I am doing it and we are all making it, but even on good days i feel like I am treading water. I told Max last night that I just feel empty. Everyone needs me right now and I just don't have a lot more to give. I can feed bellya and wipe buns and I'm barely keeping up with the house, but that's all I've got right now. I have never been this consistently tired in my life. They call preemies perpetual newborns for a son is 2 months and 25 days old and still wakes every 2.5 hours at night. To top that off my daughter has started to wake at night. I think it's an attention thing(she did the same thing when I started working full time when she was little...she just needs the attention), but it's taking it out of me. I know that the Lord will never give me more than I can handle, but sometimes I don't actually believe it! I'm praying and hanging in there; but... if I don't seem very life-like when you talk to me, please forgive me and I will make it up later!

Watchin' the world go by

Fountain in Seattle

I love living vicariously through my daughter!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Thursday, September 6, 2012

About time

Here I sit, using my son as an iPad stand so that I can 'hold' him and update my little blog! my son is now ten weeks old and I have yet to say anything more than, 'he's here!' That is just horrible. I remember when I had my desk job, sitting at a co outer all day I would update like a terribly organized perfect woman...however, the truth is out now. I can't do it all!! He he he... Logan is doing very well. At his two month appointment his doctor said that he is as strong as any two month old, and looks to be in great health. He gains weight like a champ, except for the one week when we went to nursing only... He was a little lazy and did not gain his usual one pound a week! but now he nurses like a pro and we are just loving the ease of no bottles! He is a very communicative child, he loves to smile and wiggle while you talk to him and already has definite favorites, his sister being at the top of that list. KayLynn is adjusting very well to being a big sister and loves to help. We have had our times of needing attention, but I am trying to make sure that she and I get purposeful times together! It's funny that Logan is looking more and more like her. Her three week picture and the picture of him at (adjusted age) three weeks are very similar! They did tell me that the closer he got to his due date the more like a new born he would be. They were right. I remember this age with KayLynn was a lot the same. I really want to write the story of his birth, as I did KayLynns, but a lot of the details are fuzzy. I am writing out what I can remember and then I will have those who were there help me fill in the blank spots!